Am I Alive?

I have often asked myself the question, "Am I truely living my life?"  The answer that I always come up with is never a yes or a no, i'm neutral!  I would really just like to do what I want to do and be what I want to be, but for that to be possible I need to work hard in things I use to think would just slow me down such as school and work. But recently it dawned on me that life isn't a free ride.  You have go through challenges like everyone else.  There is an old quote that says "train hard, win easy".  I applied that quote to my life and am looking forward to the time when I can finally "win easy".  Nobody wants to "train hard" but it is always worth it in the end.